Hmmm... Well, Happy New Years and all that stuff... Kinda late, I know, but hey, Better late than never, right?

And... I suppose it wouldn't have been too bad to give that guy my number... Its not like I couldn't just talk to the guy, right? And... about the whole 'trial dating' thing... i don't think i could ever EVER go out with him... I don't know if I have a good reason or not, I just couldn't do it. Well, maybe a date, but that's all I think i could muster...

I don't want to think about you. I don't.

Last night, or this morning, or something, I had a dream about bacon. Yes, that's right, bacon. Someone was cooking bacon, for me. At least, i think it was for me. And when I entered the kitchen this morning and poured myself some Frosted Flakes, I remembered about bacon. So, maybe on friday, I will have bacon, or... no, on Saturday, since I'm working Friday morning, and I get up early on thursdays. So, on saturday, I will have bacon for breakfast.

Love... i want it and I don't. its too much hassle, its messy, it makes you discombobulated.
But it can make you feel so good. I've never experienced love. I've been to scared to even try.
Not this year. This year I will try and be less afraid of that which frightens me. Try new things, meet new people.

Love... why can't all first kisses be as innocent as that? As that perfect kiss, so pure, so innocent, so loving without sex in the background.
Why can't I have a kiss like that? Why can't I have a kiss at all?


No, I will stop moping around. I will not be all... love-mopey.
Heh... i was going to write, i will not be love-thinking at all.
But that would go against my resolution, wouldn't it? Or, at least, it sort of would.
Be Less Afraid
I'm going to try, but its not easy. Baby steps.

Baby steps...